the sun is shining but all i see are shadows dancing
against the face I once I thought I knew.
you still smile through a wall of who i once knew
whose doors are now forever closed to me.
Or maybe those were just the windows that were once opened
if only for a nanosecond of time - to me, it was infinity
to have once caught sight of your beauty
to have once seen you in glory
and now

to only pretend that i once knew you.

No rhyme, no prose, no time
could ever let me understand where the wall became a mountain
between what you felt and what you thought

now seeing you is just a shadow of what I once I knew.
Words are emptied into a vacuum that disappear before they begin.

Nothing More

The world grows cold
Or is it just my heart
Turning away from You
Slowly turning blue.

The world is growing darker
But I know its my heart
that's Letting go of You
i'm wanting more than proof

It's been so long since I have met You here
Here in the place where You've been all along
No more excuses that could keep me from You
From being where You want me to be.

*nothing more than being in this moment now
nothing matters but I'm sitting here with you
All I want is everything You want for me
Cause nothing else matters more than this to me.

v.2
I could walk on water
Or Swim the deepest oceans
Level every city
But not have you here with me

Take away my kingdoms
Bring down every reason
That blinding me from being here
In the beauty of this grace

Something
why are we tangled
in all this emotion?
it's robbing my reasons, so much confusion
Maybe it's alright, to refuse this
to loosen the knots,
to make sense of it.


*Have i been chasing a ghost
of something i'd never seen before
Afraid of letting it go
Cause I'll fall off the edge
and who'll catch me then?
Afraid of letting you go.


I think I’m crazy
To live on maybe.
Removing my reasons, too much confusion
Don’t think it’s alright, to repeat this
To take too much time
To make sense of this

Emily

Speaking only with her eyes
Hoping someone will hear her silent cries
But she can’t scream,
She just wants to leave

Drawing signs on her wrists
The only way to take this risk to wake the world
Eleven years of this
No one knows that she exists


*She’s falling faster/ long before her
father knows the pain, just before she fades away
Drifting farther/closer to the edge
Of the only means /to run away from this.

Everybody’s smiling now
They couldn’t understand her pain that speaks so loud
But she can’t leave this
Something about this thing they call love.

(2:42am)
Choosing hate is the way I'd like to take
But i'll know it'll eat away inside
Choosing to/ love you /in a way I don’t know how
In a way the world would laugh and scorn

It's not the way
The way I think love goes
But this is the love
that changed you and me


This is the way I've learned to love you
Maybe letting you go, is the only way I know
This is the way I never thought i'd know
but this is the way, that’ll reach out now I know.

Maybe now, you could see, what love has done for me
Then you’ll know, its all I can give you
But for now, I’ll let you go, and let His grace
To reach out for you now

Is there a sound, of a shattering heart
That falls straight to the floor
Don’t bother picking up the pieces,
Might just hurt yourself.

If you could hear my breaking heart
Would it tell you how I’ve felt
I know it might not change the way things are now
But I think you might need to hear these words.

How could you tell me things were more than a feeling
How could I have believed that you were in healing
Don’t you know that my heart’s not a game you could start all over again
Just thought you might want to know.


A canvas painted with empty words
Now the colors seem to fade
I should have known right from the start
To think that you came from the stars.

I wonder now if things could ever change
I wonder if i'll ever know
To stare at the person in the mirror
and tell him I should not have told her.

Bleed

Funny how three words can make you or break you
and yours just seem to break me.
I'm trying to give you this chance to tell you,
to hate me, just tell me you hate me

All that was said you said to be true
But nothing matters now cuz now i'm the fool

*I told myself I’d believe her
Thinking that she'd be too good for games
I fooled myself, feeling my heart drying out
Should have listened to me now

I don’t doubt the way you say you feel
But the actions speak much louder than words
So what do you expect
Put on a smile for you?
So here I’m smiling now, here I’m smiling now

(last chorus)
I told myself to believe you
Thinking that things were too good to be true
I fooled myself, now my heart’s all cried out
Still don’t know what to say
Wish this thought of you wouldn't stay…